I Refused to Pray With My Dad — And He Stopped Speaking to Me
My father slammed his hand on the kitchen table so hard the salt shaker jumped and clattered onto the floor. For a moment, neither of us spoke. Our house in Lagos felt charged, as if electricity hung in the air. My heart thudded painfully against my ribs.
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"You will come with me this Sunday," he said. His voice was low, almost a growl. "You live under my roof. You will honour what I believe."
I stared at him, stunned.
"Dad, I said no. I am not going."
His face darkened. I could see his jaw clench and his eyes glisten with something like fury mixed with desperation. A part of me recognised the look. It was the expression he wore whenever he felt something slipping from his grip.
"You are turning away from the truth," he said. "From your family. From everything that matters."
"I am not turning away from you," I whispered. "I just do not want to go to church."
He pushed his chair back so violently that it scraped across the tiles. The sound echoed through the house, sharp and final. For a terrifying second, I thought he might walk out. Instead, he stood there, trembling, staring at me as if I had betrayed him in the deepest way a child could betray a parent.
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Then, quietly, he said something that cut deeper than shouting ever could.
"I do not recognise you anymore."
The words landed like stones in my stomach.
And in that moment, I realised something frightening.
This confrontation was no longer about religion. It was about power.
And my first real boundary had just set the whole house on fire.
My father never cared much for religion when I was growing up. He believed in good manners, hard work, and paying your bills on time. That was the closest he ever came to spirituality. On Sundays, he preferred football and gardening to any sermon. The most religious phrase he ever used was "God help us" when the electricity bill arrived.
So when he started seeing Mariam, a soft-spoken woman from work who hardly made eye contact, I did not think much of it. She seemed kind enough. Reserved. Gentle. But she lived her life through scripture. It was not the casual sort of faith that fits neatly into a weekend. It was her foundation, her language, her rhythm.
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At first, it seemed harmless. Dad went to a local church in Ikeja with her, just to be polite. Then twice. Then every Sunday. I laughed when he started playing gospel music in the car. I raised an eyebrow when he watched sermons while cooking dinner. I teased him when he refused to swear because "the Lord was listening".
But the changes kept creeping in.
He swapped his usual news radio for religious talk stations.
He started talking about sin, redemption, and spiritual battles.
He replaced family photos with framed scriptures.
I tried to be understanding. I respected my dad's right to believe whatever he wanted. I nodded along when he explained why faith gave him purpose. I listened when he told me church made him feel whole.
But I stayed quietly on the outside. I did not share his beliefs. I did not want to participate. And at first, he said that was fine.
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Until it no longer was.
The more Dad changed, the more he feared I couldn't keep up: that they were leaving me behind. Or that he was failing as a father if I did not follow him.
And that fear soon turned into pressure.
Relentless, suffocating pressure.
The first time he asked me to join him at church, I thought it was an invitation.
The third time, it felt like a test.
The tenth time, it felt like a command.
He began waking me early on Sundays, banging on my door with a cheerful voice that barely hid the insistence beneath it.
"Up you get. Service starts in an hour. Wear something smart."
I rolled over and groaned. "Dad, I am sleeping."
"You sleep every day of the week. You can give one morning to God."
I tried to reason with him. "I do not believe in this. You know that."
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He sighed, long and disappointed. "Belief comes from obedience."
The guilt tripping escalated slowly. My father said things like:
"It hurts me that you do not care about what matters to me."
"I worry for your soul."
"You are throwing away the chance to be part of something bigger."
I felt myself shrinking each time. Instead of confronting my father, I used excuses.
"I have work."
"I promised to meet a friend."
"I am tired."
He saw through all of them.
One morning, he barged into my room at dawn and threw open the curtains. The sunlight stabbed my eyes, and I sat up, annoyed.
"Dad, stop."
"You stop," he snapped. "Stop pretending you are too busy. Stop disrespecting me. Stop acting like you are above faith."
"I am not above anything," I said. "I just want to live my life without being forced into yours."
His lips tightened.
"This is my house."
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The words were familiar but carried a new weight.
Over the next few days, things got worse. Dad left religious pamphlets in my shoes. He paused the TV to lecture me about morality. He asked me to pray with him before dinner and acted wounded when I refused.
Then came the breaking point.
One Sunday, he stormed into the kitchen while I was making tea. His face was red, his voice rising before I even turned around.
"We are going to church. Get dressed."
I held the mug tightly. "I am not going."
"You are coming with me," he insisted. "End of discussion."
"No," I said. My voice surprised both of us with how firm it sounded. "I am done pretending. I am not going. You cannot force me."
His breath hitched. "I am trying to save you."
"I do not need saving."
"You are lost."
"I am not lost. I am different."
Silence fell, thick and heavy.
Then the explosion.
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"You will regret this," he shouted. "One day when it is too late, you will remember that I tried to lead you to the truth and you refused."
Something inside me snapped.
"Dad, stop. I love you, but you cannot control what I believe. I need you to respect my boundary."
His eyes burned with disbelief.
"Boundary?" he repeated, as if it were a foreign word.
"You are my child. You do not set boundaries with me."
But I had already done it. And there was no going back.
I expected anger. I did not expect the coldness that followed.
My father became polite in the most painful way possible. He barely spoke to me. When he did, he slipped religious quotes into every sentence.
"You reap what you sow."
"Pride goes before destruction."
"Only the humble find grace."
He said these things casually, as if they were normal conversation. As if they were not weapons disguised as wisdom.
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He prayed loudly in the living room, making sure I could hear phrases about "lost sheep" and "those who reject the light". He refused to watch television with me unless it was a religious programme. When I walked into a room, he fell silent and sighed dramatically, as if my presence was a burden.
One night, I overheard him on the phone saying, "I am doing everything I can, but he is drifting. I feel like I am losing him."
The words pierced through me. I went to my room and sat on the floor, suddenly aware that this fight was no longer about religion. It was about fear. Dad's fear.
Fear of losing connection.
Fear of failing.
Fear of being replaced in his own story.
I had always seen him as strong, certain, grounded. But now I saw the fragility beneath it. His new faith was a shield. A structure. A lifeline he clung to because life had shifted, and he did not know how to adapt.
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He was not trying to save my soul.
He was trying to save his identity.
And in doing so, he could not see the damage he was causing. He could not see how suffocating the house had become. He could not see that pushing me harder only drove me further away.
Realising this did not fix anything, but it softened something in me. I stopped seeing my father as the villain. I saw him as a scared man who wanted certainty in a world that offered none.
But fear does not excuse control.
And I still needed to protect my own space.
The distance grew until the house felt like two separate islands. I ate alone. I stayed in my room for hours. I avoided the living room because he was always there with a Bible open, waiting to lecture me if I walked too close.
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Then one afternoon, the phone rang. I answered it lazily, expecting a telemarketer.
It was the hospital in Yaba.
My father had collapsed at his office in Victoria Island.
I dropped everything and rushed there. When I saw Dad lying in the hospital bed, pale and exhausted, something inside me broke. The anger evaporated. He looked smaller, frailer, human in a way I had not allowed myself to acknowledge for years.
He opened his eyes when he heard me.
"You came," he whispered.
"Of course I came," I said. "You are my dad."
He swallowed. "I thought you hated me."
I felt my throat tighten. "I never hated you. I just needed space."
A long pause stretched between us. Then Dad said something I had not expected.
"I was scared."
The admission settled heavily in the room.
"Scared of what?" I asked.
"Scared of losing you. Scared that if I did not pull you into my world, you would drift so far I would never get you back."
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I sat down beside him and took his hand. "You do not get me back by forcing me to be someone I am not. You get me back by loving me as I am."
His eyes filled with tears. "I did not know how."
"I know," I said softly. "But we can try again. Both of us."
We talked for hours: longer than we had in months. We did not talk about religion, but about fear, change, identity, and loneliness. Dad apologised without excuses. I explained my boundaries without anger. For the first time, we heard each other.
When he came home, things were still tender, still cautious, but better. He backed off from the pressure. I made an effort to share moments with him that had nothing to do with belief. We rebuilt something new, something honest.
We agreed on one thing clearly:
Love does not require complete agreement.
But it does require respect.
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And for the first time in a long while, we had both chosen it.
I used to think disagreements were threats to a relationship. That refusing a belief meant rejecting the person who held it. I believed that saying no would shatter something we couldn't fix.
But I was wrong.
A boundary is not a wall. It is a door. It marks where I end and where someone else begins. It shows how to reach me without stepping on me. It keeps relationships from turning into cages.
My father showed me how people can change overnight: how new beliefs crash in, fierce and sudden, demanding loyalty. But genuine connection does not come from forced sameness. It comes from choosing to stay in each other's lives even when paths diverge.
What broke us was not religion.
It was fear.
Fear wrapped in control.
Fear disguised as guidance.
Fear pretending to be love.
What healed us was honesty.
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Sitting across from each other and admitting that loss scared us more than difference ever could.
The lesson I carry now is simple.
Someone who loves you will eventually see your boundary as an invitation to understand you rather than an attack to defend against.
So I leave you with this question:
Where in your life are you shrinking yourself to keep the peace, and what boundary could protect you without breaking the connection you are trying so hard to preserve?
Because love does not demand surrender.
It asks for truth... And the courage to speak it.
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